September 13, 2003 - 11:46 a.m.

Short update.
Mood:

I need to go vacuum. I know I haven't written here in a while, and I HAVE the time (or at least I can find some time if I truly need to) but lately I haven't needed this as an outlet, it just feels strange.

I need to calm down. Get de-stressed, but I'm in the throws of a new change in schedule so obviously there are snags. I wish I'd get used to this already! But I am, slowly but surely, I think next week would be the last "getting used to" week. So far things haven't been going so badly.

I think the only two things I wish for right this moment are: See Tina and find out what's going on with Dea. I tried to ask her what made her cancel the wedding but she didn't REALLY say anything. Then I read that Dowah kept something from here but not sure what... it's all just bits and pieces. And now I read that she got drunk yesterday and Erin kissed her? I'm not sure why I need to know so much about Dea's life. Maybe I work on the "all or nothing" basis. So I'd rather either get the full story or nothing at all. But of course it's none of my business. I just want to know she's all right no matter WHAT she does of course.

Well, that was that, I better run...

11:34 p.m.

It's my parent's anniversairy today so we ended up talking to grandma and one of her sisters. As in the long drunk tradition my dad came home and started yelling and swearing... maybe that's where I get it from. He's such a freak when he drinks. I wonder why people drink, because if it's basically to make an UTTER idiot out of yourself and looser other's respect, well then, I guess you succeeded.

I know Flech and I had this discussion before, where I told him I couldn't STAND being around ppl who drunk, and I'm still sticking by that opinion. He was so mad and said, yeah well I have the right to do whatever I want, and I said, "I never said I was going to stop you from drinking, but don't think that kind of behaviour is going to help you get into my pants". In other words: I wouldn't date you that's for sure.

And I'm sure I can hear someone out there huffing and puffing and the only thing I have to say to that is, just as you're entitled to drink, I'm entitled not to date you. In any case, he went to bed and Red was there so I didn't care THAT much, even though it was still pretty fucking embarassing. He ALWAYS embarasses me when he drinks, he's such a pig. On my 18th birthday he was eating out of the fridge in his underwear when I, and a bunch of my friends came home at 11 pm. That was the last time I had a b-day get together.

I don't hate him though, it just blows my mind because he has so little self control, and why he doesn't realise how big of an idiot he is when he drinks, oh well.

Fuck I forgot I have to study for a little quiz tomorrow, arg... Red and I ordered some stuff from Pacsun finally! Damn I LOVE that store but they wouldn't take a Canadian cc. I was so pissed off. I FINALLY figured out that there could be another way around that. Getting the stuff through Amazon (because Pacsun happens to be one of their stores). I got that Billabong jacket I've been drooling over for about 6 months now, 2 pullover type sweaters (one Roxy one Tilt), a Roxy cord tote bag, a Roxy beanie and some other stuff. Yup, you could say I went on a mini shopping spree. I love supporting surf brands so whatever. Damn I wish Canada had more surf-wear type stores *sigh*, or at least Tilt. Tilt makes the cutest stuff I swear.

I better go though. Hope my order went through *crosses fingers*. If it did it means I can basically get EVERYTHING Pacsun sells through the Amazon site, and next year they'll introduce International orders so yuppeeee... this'll hold me for now.